Little by little…

Hi just a very quick post… I am wanting to do posts about my issues ,including anxiety, OCD & depression sometime this year, but for now I just thought I’d share one thing I did today (even though it may seem like a long post I’m going to miss out a lot of detail & keep it brief) which to me is a huge deal but to others not so much… 🙂

Just to clarify that I understand if this may be confusing (particularly if you’ve not read my earlier posts) as I have a lot of problems which none of you know about but hopefully this blog is one thing that will help me & ultimately better myself …:)

I went for a walk…yes that’s my ‘thing’ for today! 🙂

It’s currently 18:18 pm & I returned to the house about 20 minutes ago (in that time I’ve warmed up, wiped away the steam from my glasses, had a tea etc). I have not left the house for a few days/weeks to say the least but today ,and as always, I told myself affirmations despite the pain of unwanted thoughts. 🙂

Anyone who is going through a similar circumstance to me will understand but if you have no idea what I’m going on about then don’t worry because no one is forcing you to read! 🙂

I’m not sure what’s different about today but I somehow managed to force myself & succeed in opening the front door and stepping outside & amidst all the cursed thoughts I marched on. Also I love my coat & scarf 🙂

Today is a particularly freezing day but honestly I don’t mind as I was so grateful to feel the fresh cold air (whilst being hit with hailstorm) & be out of the house for even just a second… 🙂

Also because it was quite dark I felt weirdly safer as though people would notice me less… 🙂

Even though I have awful, unwanted, scary thoughts,  with each step I took I reminded myself to be grateful for the privilege of being able to walk! 🙂

Winter is my favourite season…:)

I forgot to count the minutes I walked for & was outside of the house (by the way I live on a busy main road) but I’m guessing it was up to 10 minutes…:)

I think the point I’m trying to make is that this is just a tiny little achievement (or nothing at all to most) for me but it took a lot of courage & probably even a highlight of the day for me. Lots of us have issues, some more obvious than others, & I think people should be a lot more understanding. For example people may laugh at the ‘lameness’ of my post of walking but I am actually proud of this accomplishment…:)

By the way it’s now 20:48pm – (some quick post)…:)

I know I’ve not achieved something award worthy but just like I’ve I’ve titled this – little by little – I’m taking literal steps to achieve my dreams which is the realistic way to go…:)

To post this took me a lot of bravery because of fears such as further ridiculing myself…but my intention is to raise awareness & speak out & inspire…:)

Thanks very much for reading!

Love

General Grace x